a lot of things wrong with plenty of right to set it all centered.  that's the balance of my life.  but lately the swings between stability and reckless discomforting feelings have been far too lengthy.  i could brush it off and say "it's ok," because that's what i always do.  you're expecting a "but."  you simply will not get one--because that is exactly what i'm going to do.  i'll brush it under the carpet and hope no one checks underneath.  all smiles.  there are too many good things that i'm thankful for to ponder such little misfortune that i may have to deal with from time to time.  like i said before: it's all a form of "discomfort," not any true, life-altering, fork-in-the-road types of scenarios..so i think i'm okay to push them aside. yes, i do know they add up.  yes, i do know they weigh on my happiness, but let me be an advocate of hollow, meaningless acquisitions to band-aid the internal void.  music downloads, organizing playlists, and sifting through newly taken photographs burn up my mind's energy that may be otherwise used for my own destruction.  so.. what's really important to me right now? hell if i know, i just need to keep my chin above water and do what makes me happy.  someone told me that they don't think i've ever been cocky a day in my life.. i still have a hard time believing that as the truth..but the only thing i will never see is what i look like from the outside. so for now i have to trust that person's words and hope i'm not being misled.  work is good. life is good. friends are a true fortune, those of which i am lucky to have.  i never know what to expect from myself.